In Fatalistic Tendency, the Dhaka, Bangladesh-based documentary photographer Tushikur Rahman visualizes his own experience with depression through scenes of violence and confusion. In his unnerving, claustrophobic frames, he confronts painful suicidal ideations brought on by insomnia and anxiety attacks, using his camera as a means of recording a personal diary and intimate confessional.

For Rahman, who has photographed major catastrophes including the 2013 collapse of Bangladesh’s Rana Plaza and the nation’s 2010 tiger killings, Fatalistic Tendency was in some ways the most difficult of his projects, forcing him to imagine some of his most private fears. At times, throughout the work, subjective, personal meanings disintegrate into visceral frissons of sensation—as if all the universe were contained within a single nightmarish instant between wakefulness and sleep.

All images © Tushikur Rahman

via Photographic Museum of Humanity